Not smoking day 4 Day

Today is the 10th June at 7am and I am sitting here on the terrace enjoying a coffee but no cigarette. It is a beautiful day but I miss my old friend the cigarette. Once again I have woken with a headache and that awful yearning to smoke. I have been using my e cig to alleviate the need to hold a cigarette in my hand and put it to my mouth. I fear that I am now becoming addicted to the e cig. Yesterday a small part of the inside of the e. cig cartridge broke and I could feel a panic rising inside my stomach. Fortunately Colin mended the broken part and I am now able to use the device again. Whereas I used to feel guilty smoking I am now feeling the same feelings for relying on my e.cig.
On the positive side my sense of smell is returning and this morning I noticed that the kitchen smells of tobacco as a consequence of Colin continuing to smoke but that is his decision.
 Amazingly my cough has left me and I'm hoping that not smoking will alleviate my ongoing sinus problems. It is really lovely not to get up in a morning and cough. During the past year my cough has become worse I have worried about the phlegm that is coming from my chest. This appears to have ceased so that really is a positive.
Betty , my internal nicotine voice, has become less vocal although when I have a yearning for a cigarette she tries hard to convince me that one won't hurt but I know from past experience that one cigarette will hurt me because I will quickly become a regular smoker again. I really wish that I was one of those people who could have an occasional cigarette but I'm afraid my addictive personality is so strong that one cigarette quickly turns into a habit.
Although this is only day four I am feeling proud of myself. I have smoked for thirty years and to stop has proved to me that I have will power and control over myself. In the past I have not found a problem with stopping using alcohol or indeed loosing weight when I have needed too but this smoking addiction is one of the hardest to combat.
I truly believe that the TFT therapy has helped if only to focus my mind on stopping smoking. The e cig has also helped if only to give me something to do with my hands. So onwards and upwards and by taking one day at a time I will continue to be a non smoker.